You expect the universe to be logical, and perhaps it is, but you’re hardly in possession of all the pieces of the puzzle. In fact, you do not even know how many puzzle pieces there are. Universal consistency, in that regard, is an article of faith, whether in some god or science. Keep that in mind. It’s normal to be confused about the universe. The only thing you need to be certain of is yourself; your wants, your desires, your motivations, and above all, your actions.